Please don't let me gain by tomorrow...

After my last post where I said it was coming off really slowly this week I've had a bit of a 'whoosh'. When I weighed myself this morning I'd lost 3 3/4lb! Unfortunately I am also having heavy 'spotting' which means my totm is on it's way and could bugger everything up. All I want is either to stay the same as I am today or to (pretty please) lose that other 1/4lb so that I can say I lost 4lb this week! I know I must be holding onto water somewhere because my waist measured an inch more this morning. If I could lose 4lb I would only have .8lb to lose to meet my Summer Solstice challenge and it would also give me a great start on the June challenge as I put down that I wanted to lose 12lb throughout June! (I always err on the cautious side!) Whatever my scales say, by the time I'm weighed 'officially' tomorrow it will be crapper! But I don't care, 'cos I always go by my own anyway!

Looks like it's going to be another slow week.

Don't know why it's coming off so slowly this week. Think perhaps my body has become used to this diet and it needs the change of eating something. That's another week away. Unfortunately the same week I am due my 810 week my period is also due, so it looks like the next 2 weigh-in's are going to be a bit of a washout.

Discovered that I can have 0% Greek Yoghurt instead of milk too. That's good because I don't have any tea or coffee to put milk in and I only have it on cereals, which I can't have on CD. Hopefully I can make a nice sauce for my chicken or quorn to make it more palatable.

I'm trying not to feel to envious of people who have consistently good losses but it's hard. They lose well, despite picking at food-yet I stay 100% and have maybe one fairly good week in 3. I suppose if I was doing any other diet I would have stayed the same or even gained for weeks on end. It's just hard when I know I've still got at least 5 months left on this diet.

Self-sabotage

I honestly don't know what I'm trying to do to myself. This morning, despite knowing I hadn't a hope of fitting into them, I tried on 2 pairs of size 14 trousers. Why? I wanted to see how near I was to fitting into them. Well, nowhere near is the answer, which I knew it would be. I don't know what my size was originally. I wouldn't buy anything larger than the size 18 elasticated waist trousers, apart from my salopettes which were a tight size 20. I am now fitting into size 16 trousers mostly, apart from jeans, but then I never could wear them in the size I was. I do fit into one pair of size 16 stretchy jeans though. Of course that got me thinking of all the weight I still have to lose. 19lbs before I'm even classed as 'overweight' and 4st 5lbs until I reach my target weight. It all seems such a long way to go.

I need to re-focus. Concentrate on how well I've done-not how far I still have to go. Look at the fact I have lost just under 37lbs in 2 1/2 months and the fact that in a few short weeks I will no longer be 'obese'. Also that I am in size 16 trousers, that a few short months ago I couldn't have got past my knees. Perhaps I should make another date in a few weeks time to see how near I am to fitting into those trousers, just not yet. I'm trying to run when I'm still learning how to walk. I'm still in the fast lane, but there's still a minimum amount of time I need for the journey.

Week 10 weigh in.

My weigh in this week was nowhere near as bad as I thought it would be. I lost 3 1/4lb, taking my total loss in 10 weeks to 2 1/2 stone. I'm pretty pleased with that. My waist seems to be shrinking a tiny bit more again-by almost another inch which is pleasing. I have 2 more weeks until my 810 week, I'm hoping that I lose something that week. I've seen more than a few people who haven't lost at all, or even gained that week so I'm not holding out for anything much. I know at least that it isn't fat, just water weight. For now-I'm happy with this week's loss.

Not shifting this week

Well so far this week the scales haven't budged. The 1/4lb that I put on for Monday came off again on Tuesday, but they haven't moved so much as an ounce since. I'm hoping that they're going to move before the end of the week or it's going to be really disappointing. There's no way that my CDC will believe that I haven't cheated at this rate. I'm trying not to care, but my loss last week wasn't great either so I would have expected something halfway decent this week. It worries me that my losses are quite slow. If this is what it's like with 4 stone something still to go, what on earth is it going to be like for me trying to maintain my weight? Perhaps it's the bars that might be slowing things down a bit, but I don't want to stop having them. I don't know how I could cope without them being as I've gone off the shakes. I know sometimes you can have a bad week on the scales but still lose inches, but I haven't even lost any more of those this week either. Please let me see a drop on the scales soon-and a good one......

Week 10

So it's the start of week 10 for me this week. My official weigh in was pretty crap at only 1.8lbs, but then I am weighed at 4pm, which I hate. My own scales said just under 3lb, which is annoying really as yesterday it was 3lbs, but this morning I'd mysteriously added 1/4lb. It's a bit of a pain when you know you've been 100%, so there's absolutely nothing you can do to change it. Seems my body is reluctantly giving up the pounds. I'm hoping that my 810 week will give my metabolism a bit of a boost and that I still lose something-not the total opposite.

Took my 2 month photos on Saturday. I have now lost 32lbs and 27 inches. Thought I would put my start, 1 month and 2 month photos all togther so I could see the changes.

Week 9

Can't believe that I'm in my 9th week already. Only lost 1 1/2lbs this week as it was my totm-but that still makes it 29lb in 8 weeks, so I can't complain. Hoping that the hunger will go away now that my totm is nearly over-it wasn't enough to make me crack and eat something, but it wouldn't go away. My periods are so messed up on this diet, heavier and much more painful too.

One of the really weird things-probably something to do with the ketosis-is the salty taste in my mouth all the time. Sometimes it drives me mad. It's like I've been gargling with salt water! I also have lots of little tiny bruises on my legs. Four more weeks of Sole Source before I have my 810 week-I'm looking forward to that. Hope I still manage to lose some weight in that week-it's probably going to be my totm again by then. Going to set myself another little challenge-to be down to my 'overweight' BMI of 30 by August 1st. That's another 25lb to lose, so that should give me plenty of time. I've allowed for a couple of bad weeks in there. Altogether, taking my weight as of today, I have 4 stone 12 still to lose.

Week 8

So I didn't manage to hit the magical 2 stone for WI day, but I did this morning-one day later! I am finally in the 13's! I can't remember the last time I was there but it was at least 3-4 years ago! I've got a stomach ache as I've just got my TOTM-5 days early as usual. I'm more on than off lately, but I'm actually too happy to care! In another couple of weeks I'll be taking my 2 month photos-wonder how much difference I'll notice in them! Saw my uncle and my great nephew on Saturday-they were amazed at my weight loss as I haven't seen them for a while. It's really nice when people notice and compliment you. Somebody even tooted their car horn at me the other day-that hasn't happened for a while! I can't wait to be really slim for Lapland in December-a new jacket and salopettes will be needed I hope! I want to go sledging and for long walks in the snow. I'd really like to meet up again with all my Darren mates and amaze them with how slim I am then. Started to use my body brush yesterday-thought I'd give it a go as it's meant to be so good for you. I'll be pampered to the max!

End of Week 7

According to my scales I have 1lb to lose before I've lost the magical 2 stone! But I weigh in tomorrow (on my scales only 'cos my CDC is away) and I don't think I can lose a whole pound in one day. Bugger-I really wanted it to be gone by tomorrow then concentrate on the next one. I will also be in the next stone down too. Woohoo! Already I weigh less than I have done in a number of years-can't exactly remember how long-all I remember is when we went to Levi a couple of years back I didn't weigh less than 14st 10lb. Now I weigh much less than that! My goal weight I haven't been in even longer. I remember being about 10 1/2st when I worked at Self Serve and that was years ago! Soon I will be even less than that. Brian spoke to Linda yesterday, he did remember not to tell her about the diet. I want it to be a complete surprise next time we see them!

I'm going to cross my fingers for the 1lb weight loss by tomorrow. It's not completely impossible.