Friday 24 April 2009

Nearly the end of week 6

I'm hoping it's not going to be another slow week this week but I don't hold out much hope. The scales just don't seem to be shifting. I'm hoping it's not the bars that are slowing things down as I really enjoy them and look forward to having one every night. Not just that-there are certain other benefits to having a bar every day as they seem to help 'get things moving'. Had a bit of a weird stomach ache all week-like it was going to be my TOTM. Actually it feels more like the middle of the month as I sometimes get a bit of a stomach ache then too.

I've stuck to this diet absolutely 100% for all the time I've been on it. I know that I cannot fail to lose weight, but I just wish that the slower weeks would come a bit later on in the diet when I was much nearer to goal. Someone at work today (who has actually lost loads of weight herself with help from a nutritionist) asked me how my diet was going and if I'd lost any weight! Now I thought it was obvious that I've lost 21lb's, but obviously not. It's left me feeling very slightly demoralised and wanting to have a really good couple of weight loss weeks, losing about 5-6lbs for a change like a lot of others do. I want my reward for being so good for all these weeks.

Tuesday 21 April 2009

Week 6

2nd day in and I'm feeling fine-although tired. Wouldn't put that down to the diet though-I went back to work yesterday after a lovely 2 weeks off and I hate having to get up at 6.30am again when I'd got used to having an extra couple of hours in bed.

Weigh in yesterday. Only lost just under 2lb this time-a bit disappointing but then there are going to be weeks like that. I know that I've done everything right-there's nothing I could have done any different. When I look at my weight loss overall it's amazing. 5 weeks and just under 1 1/2 stone-it took over 3 months for me to lose less than that last year and the year before and I had to work bloody hard for that at the gym as well as feeling half starved. It will be nice to get back into the 13's again-hopefully in the next couple of weeks if the losses are good. Time is actually flying by on this diet-after this week I have another 6 weeks on Sole Source and I have to go on 810 for a week. Am actually quite looking forward to it even if I will be living on chicken breasts all week as I don't like fish (without batter!) or cottage cheese or most of the other stuff you're allowed. I like quorn, but that is only when it's mixed with Ragu and accompanied by spaghetti! Don't know whether I'll have it at lunchtime so I've got something to eat at work-or have a bar at work and save the chicken for a hot meal later. Plenty of time to worry about that yet. I'll spend all that time thinking about it and that week will be over in a flash. Then back to another 12 weeks or so on Sole Source until I reach 25 BMI and have to move up again.

I'm really proud of myself actually for sticking to this. So many people have said that there's no way that they could do this diet-I would have probably said the same at one point. You just have to be in the right head space-that's the only secret. If you are then you can cope with anything.

Thursday 16 April 2009

5th week

So I'm midway through week 5. Managing pretty well I think, but for some reason today seems harder. I've been feeling pretty hungry-as well as tired. Didn't have a mousse until at least lunchtime, then saved my soup and a bar until teatime. Hubby and son had a takeaway-smelled lovely. I felt so exhausted this afternoon I fell asleep on the sofa. Woke up feeling starving. Daniel decided to eat a packet of marmite crisps-for some reason I have been absolutely craving them lately-that and marmite on toast. I think about food constantly lately.

I've been thinking a lot about how it's going to be when I finish this diet. It scares me to have to think about eating again actually. I've always found it hard to diet before because I can't stand vegetables and salad, that isn't going to change when I've finished this either. How on earth am I going to make good choices? Everything I love to eat is full of carbohydrates. I think I'm going to have to go for the 'everything in moderation' approach or I'm just not going to have any kind of life. I'm going to have to watch my portion control and keep up some form of exercise. I don't want to have to go back to doing this diet again-I don't know if I could ever find myself in that kind of head space again. I see so many people 'returning' to this diet and I don't want to find myself as one of them. It took almost 7 stone extra for me to be that desperate and I couldn't do this all again. I still want to be able to enjoy a roast dinner and my favourite chicken curry-I just have to learn that if I have that one day I can't eat between meals or slob around in a chair all day.

I've been in a really weird mood today too. It sounds strange but I think my emotions have caught up with my body clock. My TOTM was due today-but it came a week early again. I had all the pain of my TOTM then but not the moodiness-it seems like that's come today, when it was meant too. My hormones are all over the place at the moment-so it seems are my emotions.

Wednesday 8 April 2009

In my 4th week of Cambridge Diet

I honestly never thought that I would be able to say that. Just a few short weeks ago I decided once and for all that I didn't want to be fat any more. Conventional diets just weren't going to be for me-with such a large amount of weight to lose I knew that I would lose motivation soon after losing about a stone and a half. It's happened many times before. I needed to do something though-my life was so miserable. My clothes didn't fit properly-I looked a mess. I had constant heartburn, I was taking anti-inflammatory tablets because I had pains in my feet and my legs. I was having problems walking too far. I honestly felt I had to do something before I crippled myself.

My doctor mentioned Lighter Life to me a couple of times, but I knew that at £60+ per week there was no way I could afford it. However, browsing the forums I saw that someone had mentioned that they were doing the Cambridge diet-it was the same as LL but cheaper and without the group 'counselling' sessions. Straight away I went to their website and discovered that there were a number of counsellors in my area. It still took me a while to contact one, while I debated with myself on whether it was a good idea, whether I could afford it or even stick to it. When I first contacted a counsellor she turned out to be someone I knew from work years ago! We had a great catching up session, but I wanted my CDC to be someone I didn't know-a total stranger. I'm intensely private about my weight and even my close family don't know what it was. I found another one about 10 minutes away from where I live and she was great.

The first week on the diet was tough-no kidding. I was so hungry and the food cravings were horrendous. I spent most of my time on the toilet or trying to keep myself out of the cupboards. Trying to drink at least 2 1/2 litres of water a day when you're barely used to drinking a litre was no mean feat. It's starting to get a bit easier now, but I still spend a lot of time on the loo!
The start of the 3rd week was easier as it meant I could start to have the bars. I was really looking forward to that as I was sick of shakes three times a day.

In the first week I lost just over 7lb. Not bad but it was my TOTM too. Altogether I lost 14 3/4lb in 3 weeks. That's without the inch loss. I'm amazed. I've managed to stick to this 100%. I still have loads to go, but I know that I'll get there. Already my clothes fit better and I'm happier. I haven't taken a single anti-inflammatory tablet since I started and I no longer suffer from heartburn. That's with just over a stone gone. How good will I feel when I've lost it all!